Underestimate me.

I couldn't resist

My tears started to fall down my cheeks

while i was trying to control my breathing

cause' the anger was taking control

I'm sick cause' i know they'll never understand

cause' i know they're not even trying.

i'm sick cause they shot straight to me

while i am the only one who has been loyal to them

but what can i say? what can i do?

family is family

i learned to love them as they are

even if they hurt me

even if they always seems to underestimate me

i owe my life to them

but there are things they cannot understand

and it seems like they forget that once

they were standing exactly where i am.

As a woman, as a girl, as a person who feels and thinks

as someone who dream and have goals

they support me in a very strange way

cause' at the same time

they're trying to make me on their own

but wait...

i'm not like them

maybe that's why i've always been feeling like an outsider

maybe that's why i had shut my mouth 

when it's about all my plans

cause' i hate criticism

and it's ironic that they're so fucking good at that.

I'm on my own

i have always been on my own

so what?

in a certain way,

after all the hurt, after all the tears

that teached me how to be strong

how to keep going and work hard

for my life, for my dreams, for myself

no matter what.

It hurts, cause' i love them more than everything

it hurts cause i've always felt alone on this world

but it is good cause' it motivates me

to keep working on my shit

without needing the approve of anybody.