Bad bitch.

It's funny how people thought

That we were perfect together

That you were like

 a perfect dreamboy.

It's funny how i never listened to my best friend 

When she told me

 you were not for me

And how i was super mad at her 

for saying that.

It's funny how my mom told me

 i should leave you

When she saw me crying and broken 

for you, for the first time 

And i admit that that didn't happened just once.

It's funny how you manipulated me

To push away my male best friend 

And how he told me

"you're gonna change 4 years of our frienship just for one man?"

And i push him out of my life without no doubt

Cause you were my world

then i was dying 

It hurted me like hell

Cause i really loved him

And i admit that leaving him hurted me more

Than leaving you at all

Cause when i left you

The only thing i felt was happiness

And anger because our relationship 

was built on secrets and lies

Was built on more tears than smiles

Now i understand why my ex best friend told me 

That i was a bitch

A bad bitch...

but the worst part was 

that he actually keeps treating me like and old friend 

And i realize that through all this years

He never acted right or bad

While i was mad at him

For no reason

And honestly

I don't  deserve that

I didn't deserve his kindness

But i'm saying thank you for that.

It's too late to say sorry

What actually matters is that 

i realized and accepted my mistakes

But i just can't get out of my head

All the shit i put him through

I made a lot of mistakes

It's too late to regret

I gotta live with that.